the feeling's faded now
yeah, like everyone's favorite pair of jeans
but these are cancer causing chemicals, too, dammit
or maybe just hopeless lingering memories
sad, sad, sad.

what moment did you realize you wouldn't have anyone know (or love or hold)
to kill a favor that way by the end of the line
a single span of wind and light to rush across an open hall
a Gross understatement of me.

did anyone tell you
you could make a killing from that
and here i am thinking so hard about how i dream
so hard that i start believeing i can do it
and all those things i should've done
they happened, no doubt.
so i forget, with good reason.

funny how i still clutch my blankets at night
and funny how i still can't fall asleep.